My friend Jesus

I know my parents are in Heaven, what do they do there?
Do they interact with Jesus and talk like neighbors?
Also,if I am not able to see Jesus in Heaven I really
do not care to go. When I die I want to be able to hug
Jesus and say I love you and have a conversation and hold his hand. Can I do that? Also, when I pray I pray to Jesus. I picture in my mind the picture of him that is in many churches.
I know He is THE KING OF KINGS
but I feel like He is an old friend and talk to Him through prayer just like that an old friend. Is that
disrespectful? Does Jesus cry? When my parents died did
they see Jesus right away or over time through the dying process?
Can I be a good christian and still get mad at others?